reset

2006-02-27T11:23:00.000-08:00

fuck.
lar.
tmr is the exams and this shit is still bothering me.
wtf.

my only one.

2006-01-11T23:20:00.000-08:00

Oh, please don't go, I need you
I'll please you, not mislead you
If you would be
My only one

Together we move slowly
I'll never leave you lonely
If you would be
My only one

If you believe
We were meant to be
Why'd you leave me alone..?

What happened to forever?
I'll try to make things better
If you would be
My only one

Now six days since we've spoken
I'll fix you when you're broken
If you would be
My only one

If you believe
We were meant to be
Why'd you leave me alone..?

If you love me too
Can I call you
My only one

If you say no
I won't let go
My only one

If you believe
We were meant to be
Why'd you leave me alone..?

"My Only One"
Plain White T's

2006-01-10T10:29:00.000-08:00

"O Allaah! Separate me (far) from my sins as you have separated (far) the East and West.
O Allaah! Cleanse me of my sins as white cloth is cleansed from dirt.
O Allaah! Wash me of my sins with water, ice and snow."

selamat hari raya haji everyone.
=))

i'm here. who's there??

2006-01-01T10:35:00.000-08:00

what is a blog without blog entries rite?

so yeah. i'm here to start blogging. yesterday was the last day we would ever be in 2005. and a few hours later, a brand new day which we humans lovingly call New Year's Day. boring.

as i was saying, yesterday night, was the last night of bla bla bla...... , and i have to say, the telephone companies in singapore fucked up. or should i say, screwed up. or, whatever else lah hor. cos i was waiting for a reply from dearest, and it came at nearly 2am in the morning, by which time i was already asleep. i dunnoe what happened yesterday night, but i know we all can blame it on singtel, m1, and my "loved" one, starhub for all the misunderstandings that might have occured yesterday night because of their stupid bloody mistakes.

2005 to 2006. hell. i dont see any big new discoveries, or originally new inventions coming. i think humans have become lazy to think hard enough. even the really smart ones. c'mon. we have to admit it. geniuses are extinct. nobody had came out with a nice enough theory or formula which would cause a big hoo-haa in the science world. why cant humans now discover new things like how isaac newton discovered gravity, or how einstein created that crazy formula of e=mc². its crazy to think that humans cant discover great new stuff about this earth when there are lots of mysteries out here in our own backyard, just waiting to be discovered.

things like, why do my goldfishes think like piranhas?
why a normal malay guy named asmawi can be so damn popular in just a few months?
or why do chelsea fc have a greater fan base now than they did 4 years back?

prior to answering that question, you may answer, cos they've "earned" fans globally. and if you say that, i may just kick you in the mouth. cos chelsea didnt earn their fans. they bought their fans. oh yeah, bought will be a better word than earned. cos chelsea bought everything. players, fans, sponsors, ground, and their certain-big-mouthed-manager-who-think-he-is-The-One. booo. they suck. i miss the chelsea of old. they were a great club. what with their legend, Gianfranco Zola and all. chelsea fc was a much better team then. now, to put it in plain words, they just disgust me.

yes. long live soccer! die chelsea fc. or at least, i hope their certain-big-mouthed-manager-who-think-he-is-The-One will die of a heart-attack when Barcelona beats them in Champions League, and when Man Utd or Liverpool wins the EPL.

and here goes my new year's resolution. to scream shout and jump in front of any chelsea fan i see when all that happens.

happy new year peeps. =P

In the fire, on blackened wings i fly.

2005-12-28T23:00:00.000-08:00

"Confess... Witch"

I see the moon outside
With its evil grin
Watching the priest tonight
Accusing ME of sin

Oh, help me, "No, you're gonna die"
Oh, help me, "No, just say goodbye"

In the fire, on blackened wings I fly
In the fire, to Hell... and then I die...
Oh it's still the same
Can you tell me why?
Witches then are Witches today

"Confess... Witch"

A thousand years of pain
Between here and then
Did we all die in vain?
Oh it's just insane

Oh, help me, "No, you're gonna die"
Oh, help me, "No, just say goodbye"

In the fire, on blackened wings I fly
In the fire, to Hell... and then I die...
Oh it's still the same
Can you tell me why?
Witches then are Witches today

"Die Witch... Now go to Hell"

In the fire, on blackened wings I fly
In the fire, to Hell... and then I die...
Oh it's still the same
Can you tell me why?
Witches then are Witches today

Roadrunner United
"In the Fire"

oops.

2005-12-19T17:49:00.000-08:00

shit. accidentally clicked on save template.
so now u guys got a preview of what is to come.
damn..
gonna change it back when i get home.
kk.
cyaa.

superman.

2005-11-18T11:54:00.000-08:00

it has been a tiring week for me. for the past 4 days, i've been going home late. i dont blame anybody for that. its my choice for doing the things i did. so yeah. i dont blame anyone for my coming home late. and it looks like today is gonna be no different.

today skool will start at 2 and end at 5. lectures all the way. after tat, will be going to a secret location wit some secret frens to celebrate some, um, secret celebrations. heh.

"i really dont mind wat happens now and then,
as long as you'll be my friend at the end!

if i go crazy then would you still call me superman?
if i'm alive and well would you be there holding my hand?
i'll keep you by my side with my superhuman-might.
kryptonite!

you call me strong, you call me weak,
but still your secrets i will keep.
you took for granted all the times.
i never let you down.
you stumbled in, and bumped your head,
if not for me then you'll be dead,
i put you up,
and put you back on solid ground!

Kryptonite! YEAAAAAH!"

hahaha! wooo. love that phrase. so much meaning. can be for friends, can be for couples. yeah. woooo. gotta go pack my bags wit my sisters' baju kurong now to lend yan ling and kym. kk. taake care.

i feel the anger changing me.

2005-11-12T00:23:00.000-08:00

fuckk lah. so bloody stressed up over so many bloody things. only the first week of skool, and things have gone like this. seriously, i dunnoe whether its me that is bringing down the mood on everyone, or whether its everyone testing out my patience every single motherfucking day. especially the last four days. everything seems so irritating to me. which is why i'm blogging now lar dumb. cos i need to de-stress slash vent out my anger slash being a motherfucking asshole who will say fuck every two or three bloody lines.

monday was okay. well come to think of it, it was the best of all the weekdays. kinda weird since everyone says they hate monday cos of "monday blues". come to think of it again, wat the fuck is monday blues? everyday seems to be so moody everyday of the week.

i guess i'm lucky. i'm just lucky i've been through this a couple of million times before. i've been through more days without smiling than u can ever imagine. days of old. woh. bukit batok days. sec 1 days. judo days. sec 2, 3, and 4 days. days of gloom. days of faking it. days of being an ass. days of shit. watever.

being used is not fun. okay, u may not understand wat being "used" is. being used is my term of us good hearted guys who in the end get bullied by their own best frens. alrite alrite wait a minute. to my dear nyp family, i havent found a much more fun and caring bunch of peeps who at least will wait for me when i go to the toilet. hur hur.

and to the used nation, wake the fuck up! stand up for ur own rights and dont regret it when u get hurt and betrayed by people whom u call frens. if u cant stand it, walk away. just walk away from it all cos u gotta realise that its not worth it. my heart goes to those who is going thru all this now, cos i noe how it feels. i was confused beyond reason. but now i noe. now i noe who my family are. and now i also noe wat to do to these ppl who like to betray, make jokes out of others and think they're a joker. leave them. we dont need those fuckers.

whoa. okay. just got msg from sam asking whether to postpone tmr's outing to next saturday. okay lor. anything ah. next week u all can come my house without me lor cos i got plans next week. so yeah. have fun next week guys. oh yeah. i'm not angry. i'm taking ur advice arthur. to smile when u face shocking and potentially irritating situations. hehe. keep smiling aful. thats wat i used to call myself when i was small. aful. aWful. haha. see. i'm smiling now. woooo. =)

it feels good to let go of everything once in a while. somehow, i just cant let go of things verbally. everyone knows i got some kind of speech problem. as in, most of the time i cant speak clearly and i often repeat them. i find it easier to do that by writing my thoughts away. thats y i dont usually tell my problems. cos i find it hard to translate how i feel when i'm talking.

oh ya by the way, its my first time writing in paragraphs. it feels like writing an essay. but hell. quite fun also lar. hehe. dunnoe wat way to write next time. maybe will resort to my old ways. which is, a few words, then a few full-stops. an example would be:

"i love this entry..
its so sweet...
woooo...
haha....
hurhur.."

back to this blog entry. i feel so good now after writing down all this. even though tmr is cancelled and bla bla bla, i feel good. for once in this week, i'm starting to look at the motherfucking bright side of life.

and yeah. sorry for the moody sessions i had with u this week. take care peeps.

f the guitar stores.

2005-11-04T22:17:00.000-08:00

at first i tot i had enough cash to buy my very own, bass guitar.

i was feeling high.

damn, i couldnt stop thinking bout it.

i even made plans to buy it as early as next wednesday with my abang sedare.

but alas. i did some research just now, and i am now feeling so damn motherfucking to the max of everyone's crap disappointed.

disappointed cos so far, my research tells me that the cheapest bass are at $200++.

and the packages.

gosh.

swee lee's cheapest, and only "value" package cost SG$440.

tat means i gotta save another $240.

now seriously, i need help. anybody who have contacts and can get like discounts with the old guitar selling ah-peks at their old guitar shops at lets say, chinatown, pls tell me. i cant stand sitting at home doing nothing watching pop videos on mtv everyday. so yeah. give me a call.

cos i want my bass guitar.

=(

2005-10-29T17:35:00.000-07:00

it is not wrong to say Insyaallah.

it is not wrong to say Insyaallah.

it is not wrong to say Insyaallah.

for the love of God, my muslim brothers and sisters, it is NOT wrong to say Insyaallah.

it is not and i have the right to say it and i said it not becos i wanna irritate u or piss u off or wat but it is said with an open mind that everything may not go our way tmr, or whenever else for that matter.

so, i'll say it again to remind myself and u tat it is so not wrong to say Insyaallah.

enjoy ur day and slamat berbuke.

2005-10-28T21:20:00.000-07:00

whoaaaaaa.

tmr will be a busy day at geylang.

i think lah.

cos, wicked aura will be performing at tanjong katong, while ahli fiqir will go down and do their thing at another part of geylang too.

shiok man.

think i'm going down tmr wit family.

oh ya btw, my zen micro is in hospital rite now. ;-(

it will only be back wit me in 3 WEEKS.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

die die die.

3 agonizing weeks cos the new shipment for zen micro will only come in 3 weeks.

but actually, i dun see the link wit NEW SHIPMENTS and my sick zen micro.

hmmmm..

maybe like wat they did wit arthur's mp3, they will do the same to me.

which is to replace it wit a new one of cos.

hehe.

wooooooooooooo.

kk.

gotta do stuff now.

cya.

2005-10-26T22:04:00.000-07:00

wasssup ppl??

i'm bored.

i'm sure u are too.

=)

click on this website then.

http://WhatHappenedToEmily.com

go on, click on it.

its guaranteed to keep u awake.

enjoy peeps.

2005-10-24T22:54:00.000-07:00

finally, after 2 1/2 years, i've cancelled my friendster account.

=)

main reason: too lazy to update my damn profile.

and i got nothing to update anyway so yah might as well stop all the bull-crapping wat..

alrite alrite.

i'm so Fabulously Lazy to continue.

cya round peeps.

2005-10-19T12:17:00.000-07:00

sigh sigh sigh.

i want a bass guitar.

i really really want a bass guitar.

and i want the best one.

but damnit.

my progress in saving for it is like so damn slow.

with my current pay, its still like only 10%..

sigh sigh sigh.

=(

2005-10-15T07:11:00.000-07:00

been quite a busy week for me.
worked on monday, went out on tuesday, worked again on wednesday, went out again on thursday, and yesterday, which was friday, was work work work again.
and today, will go out again.
haha..
vicious cycle.

anyway today i will be playing risk at norman's house.
wit deen, kal, nal, syam(i think), and of cos norman.
my prediction for the winner, is....
is...
is....
me!!
haha..

risk is actually a very fun game.
the first time i played it, nearly fought wit deen.
hahaha..
and i nearly won too, having the second largest army on the map, my own big mistake was that i made an alliance wit syam.
that was a problem cos my mission was to conquer asia, but my ally was in asia itself..
damn..
stup..

anyway anyway, the playing time for this upcoming game should be about 6-7 hours.
haha..
it will be long, but it will be fun and of cos with people like norman and kal around, it will be full of mind games.

yup.
oh ya btw, went out wit arthur, yewtat, yanling and kym on thursday.
went bowling.
hahaa..
got a few "unforgettable" memories.
cos "somebody" drop the bowling ball just when he was about to bowl.
it was hilarious.
and another "somebody" was trying to bowl when the bowling ball got stuck in her fingers.
haha..
after that, watched the skeleton key.
very cool movie.
and for the first time, i broke my fast in a cinema.
kinda weird cos usually i have like rice wit all the different gravy and stuff, and now i'm having popcorns and sprite.
for the movie, i'll give it 3.5 outta 5 stars.
went for dinner at marina square foodcourt with them after that.
ate nasi lemak, and popiah.
but the popiah not nice sia..
the one at my bazaar is nicer.
was a very fun day but could be fun-ner if sam and idah came along.
hm..

okay lah.
gotta go and do something else.
byeeeeeeeeee.

2005-10-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

cancelled tmr's plan to go sentosa.

cos i wanna watch goal.

i dun wanna miss the first of wat i think will be a great trilogy.

anyways, yah.

cancelled the sentosa trip.

sorry girls!

dun be angry hor.

;-)

2005-10-10T22:34:00.000-07:00

I never knew
I never knew that everything is falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

"Over My Head (Cable-Car)"
the Fray

2005-10-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

Cold to disappear but
I missed you more these days
And all these tatooed angels
Have brought me back today

I'm a wasted boy, empty master plan
Been stuck inside this lonely room again
You get paranoid, see vultures circling
Want to sleep with them down comes the final curtain
Until, you come, into your soul again
We'll be the worst of best friends
Does it feel like Christmas in Hollywood?
Does it feel like we're ever going to make it home?

Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
Heart in a cage
You're so full of desire
You need, fast hands
To deal with all the liars
So don't burn baby burn baby burn

It's a waste of joy, I can hardly stand
Been looking for the ramp for my escape
And of animals, so close to perfect
They're the only ones who seem to know their heart
Does it feel like Christmas in Hollywood?
Does it feel like we could ever come undone?

Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
Heart in a cage
You're so full of desire
You need, fast hands
To deal with all the liars
Bullet-proof skin to keep you alive
Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
So don't burn baby burn baby burn

I can't hold you, I can't hold you, I can't hold you
To lose you is to never love again
To lose you is to never love again
To lose you is to never love again
To lose you...

Institute
"Bullet-proof Skin"

2005-10-06T11:43:00.000-07:00

wooooooooo.

tired sia..

but it wasnt so busy compared to yesterday.

maybe i'm juz feeling fatigue.

watever it is, i cant wait for my pay by the end of the week.

should be able to make at least enough for a new pair of shoes.

woooooooohoooo.

i love getting my pay.

cant wait for it.

2005-10-04T22:30:00.000-07:00

woooooooooooo.

i love starting my blog entries with woooo.

haha.

and i love copying from other ppl's blogskin and making them into my own.

okay lah maybe not LOVE but LIKE.

i LIKE copying from other ppl's blogskin and making them into my own.

okay okay OKAY i am hearing some of u muttering things like, "ur not being original!" and "where's ur own damn creativity?"

but let me tell u tis boys and girls.
its not as if i dun give credits to those ppl. and even if i were to create something new, it would still turn out like tis.

cos c'mon lah, nothing's new, everything's been done.

rite?

longest, most boring blog entry in the whole entire universe.

2005-09-29T23:06:00.000-07:00

to tell u guys the truth, my mood rite now is not good.
cos of my damn computer.
it is so not co-operating with its master.
stupid fucking computer-slave.

alrite alrite. i'll try calming myself down as tis blog entry goes on.

now, time for the lowdown, of my version on wat happened on our 3-day class chalet.
**trumpets, drumrolls, guitars, triangles, list of musical intros goes on....

first day.
- was supposed to meet yanling aka laugh-out-loud, kym aka dolphin, yewtat aka tall-freak, and aisha aka sprinter at tampines mrt at 3.30 before going to the chalet itself. (some nicknames are self-explainatory, while the rest will be explained along the way.)
- but because of er-hem, some people, we were late in doing so.
- met benjamin aka big boss along the way there.
- after meeting them, met alex and ian there coincidentally.
- took bus, and an interesting thing happened after that.
- we went down the wrong bus-stop.
- tats the interesting thing. hur hur.
- looked around confused, looked like a group of pathetic bunch of 17 year olds.
- saw halton d, which was my gf's chalet. and saw the changi hospital sitting pretty a few meters away from it.
- decided to walk there on the wrong bus-stop.
- while walking there, another interesting thing happened.
- laugh-out-loud started screaming like a pig, asked her wat happened, pointed to us a dead cat.
- super gross. flies around it, stomach had a hole. dun dare think wat might caused it to die in such a state.
- continued walking and complaining about the hot weather.
- turned back, saw another bus coming in from the distance. asked Sprinter to run for the bus since we didnt know how far we were from it.
- upon tapping our ez-link cards, we realised we were only one more bus-stop away from it. Zzz.
- went inside the class chalet, searched around for the room.
- found the room, nobody inside it.
- called edmund aka mentor, and waited for him.
- waited for mentor.
- mentor finally came after about 5 hours. okay, maybe i'm exagerating a bit here..
- finally, got into our 3-room chalet.
- now here's the fun part. i expected a 3-room chalet. and literally, wat we got WAS A BLOODY 3-ROOM CHALET. one living room, and 2 bedrooms. and one of the bedrooms had no door. wtf siak. talk about expecting the unexpected.
- the rest of the day was just having dinner with the gang that was there, complete wit mentor's wife. pretty lady. pheeweeet.
- after that, played cards.
- played uno, i won. now, this is expecting the expected. =)
- played heart-attack. and really, got a heart-attack by the, errr, "playing style" of chye teck aka winner of most popular person in o5o5.
- bla bla bla, played cards as time goes by, and more people arrived.

second day.
- technically, a day starts when it hits midnite. so, i'll continue when the clock had hit midnite.
- mentor and wife had gone home by now, so left wit us.
- decide to go out for some fresh air, played games, talked...
- went back inside when got nothing else to do.
- called mcdelivery for supper.
- ate supper, and slept.
- but couldnt really sleep, only managed to catch a few winks here and there cos laugh-out-loud was beside me and i was feeling really, really crammed, and it was really really cold.
- then again, i was grateful tat i was on the bed, while the rest was on the floor. sorry peeps.
- woke up, but stayed in bed while the rest went out to watch the sunrise.
- moved on to sleep.
- woke up and asked arthur where was he, and found out tat they were on the way back liao.
- oh ya, arthur will be aka complain-king. heh.
- after tat, played games wit the gamers, then went down to the swimming pool.
- had fun swimming, and sun-tanning.
- erm, wat happened after tat was mundane stuff, like bathing, eating, bla bla bla.
- after mundane stuff, went shopping. shopping for bbq stuff.
- arriving back at the chalet, went back to bed to try sleeping.
- surprisingly, managed to go into deep sleep for like a few hours.
- woke up, went down to the bbq pit, and helped out.
- boring. ate only a few since i had some trouble wit my stomach.
- went back to the chalet, played card games again, and honestly, it was also boring.
- becos we played an uno game which never really ends. okay, it did end lah finally, but nobody won it. double Zzz.

third day.
- just to remind all of u, tis happened after midnite.
- went out to have supper and saw transvestites aka statues doing their stuffs.
- pretty and sexy. but, not pheeweeet. juz whoah.
- went back chalet, bla bla bla....
- fast forward to changi village park, where i learnt how to play bridge, and where i saw planes flying rite above our heads.
- the planes were beautiful. the sound coming off from it was great. everything was just beautiful.
- after tat, mundane stuffs again.
- packed back, went home.
- on the journey home, was reminded of michael buble's song, home.
"another sunny day, has come and gone away, something something something, and i want to go home.. i wanna go home.. "

yep, tat was basically wat happened. so ya, last words from me to you, if u wanna book a chalet, check if its really 3-rooms first.

take care, and cyaaaaaaa.

ps. photos had not been uploaded yet, will be uploaded soon. sorry. check my multiply site often to see it has been done aight.

2005-09-25T22:54:00.000-07:00

wooooooo.

by the time u guys are reading this, i shud be in my chalet now.

=)

noooooo.

2005-09-24T10:56:00.000-07:00

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh....

i've finally found the perfect mp3 file for Franz Ferdinand's Do You Want To.

but shit man..

i cant upload it to my ripway account..

which means i cant share it with u all for the time being..

stupid sey..

very angry cos after weeks of searching, i've finally, finally found it. but now i cant upload it here.

what a bummer.

happy?

2005-09-20T22:35:00.000-07:00

exam is over!!!

woooo.

kk.

enuf bout exams.

its time to go out, find a bloody job, and work.

or maybe not lar.

maybe i'll just REST for a few weeks, THEN go out, find a bloody job, and work.

=)

2005-09-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

i am tired and sick of tis.

luckily, i have something else to fall on to.

if not i wouldnt know what would become of me now.

i love my pillow.

thanks for SUPPORTING me all tis while.

and yah i aint trying to be funny here.

not at all.

euphoria?!

2005-09-05T12:11:00.000-07:00

wooooohooooooo.

be happy for me.

i've done my java project.

no errors.

launched it smoothly.

did it with my own effort.

will pass it up later at 2.50pm.

wooooohooooooooooooooooo.

only javanites (java ppl) will know how hard it is to do it.

nobody is more happy than i am right now.

yeeeeeehaaaaaaw.

Alhamdullilah.

=)

reality check.

2005-09-03T13:01:00.000-07:00

this week,

on monday - presentation for creative thinking and problem solving skills.

on tuesday - pass up java project, and lab 8 and 9.

on wednesday - communication skills common test.

on thursday - electronic fundamentals common test.

on friday - digital media design common test, and pass up digital media design project.

following week,

wednesday - java exam.

thursday - maths exam, mom's birthday.

following following week,

monday - multimedia computer exam.

hm. i guess i still have time for fun and games. =)

2005-08-20T17:42:00.000-07:00

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for a week
I was drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back

Hey
Wait
I've got a new conplaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hate
Haight
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself angel's hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back

Hey
Wait
I've got a new conplaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hate
Haight
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Heart-Shaped Box - Nirvana

2005-08-17T21:47:00.000-07:00

I need an easy friend.
I do, with an ear to lend.
I do think you fit this shoe.
I do, won't you have a clue.

I'll take advantage while.
You hang me out to dry.
But I can't see you every night, free.

I'm standing in your line.
I do hope you have the time.
I do pick a number too.
I do keep a date with you.

I'll take advantage while.
You hang me out to dry.
But I can't see you every night, free.

I need an easy friend.
I do, with an ear to lend.
I do think you fit this shoe.
I do, won't you have a clue.

I'll take advantage while.
You hang me out to dry.
But I can't see you every night.
No I can't see you every night, free. I do. [x4]

About A Girl - Nirvana

2005-08-16T23:05:00.000-07:00

What else should i be
all apologies
what else should i say
everyone is gay
what else could i write
i dont have the right
what else should i be
all apologies

in the sun
in the sun i feel as one
in the sun in the sun
i'm married
buried

i wish i was like you
easily amused
find my nest of salt
everything is my fault
i'll take all the blame
aqua seafoam blame
sunburn with freezburn
choking on the ashes of her enemy
all in all is all we all are

All Apologies - Nirvana

2005-08-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

Come, as you are. As you were.
As I want you to be. As a friend.
As a friend. As an old enemy. Take your time.
Hurry up. The choice is yours. Don't be late.
Take a rest. As a friend. As an old memory, memory, memory,
memory.

Come. Dowsed in mud. Soaked in bleach.
As I want you to be. As a trend. As a friend.
As an old memory, memory, memory, memory.

And I swear that I don't have a gun.
No I don't have a gun. No I don't have a gun.

Memory, memory, memory, memory (don't have a gun).

And I swear that I don't have a gun. No I don't have a gun.
No I don't have a gun. No I don't have a gun.
No I don't have a gun. Memory, memory...

Come As You Are - Nirvana

2005-08-09T11:01:00.000-07:00

to all the mfkrs out there, have a f-king happy national day.
k bye.
cya.

2005-08-01T22:52:00.000-07:00

had a bad day...
didnt go out as i planned it to be..
i guess it was God reminding me who's the boss in tis world...
after all, its been a long time since i've prayed to Him..
and after tat prayer i did, i feel refreshed...
i feel great..
but wait..
i'm not trying to say anything to all my non-Muslim frens out there...
its juz something i muz blog about today and to all of u non-Muslims, if u dun feel rite, or if u dun like it, i'm sorry..
u can close tis window rite now..
okay there i've said it..
anyway, as i've said earlier, i've had a bad day as wat i planned didnt go out well at all...
totally the opposite of wat i had in mind..
so reached home today wit a bad mood...
not pissed, not disappointed...
juz felt confused..
as to why things turned out tat way today..
felt really bad juz now...
when mom saw me, she knew something was wrong and immediately didnt layan me cos she noes i wanna be alone...
she looked at me wit those caring eyes of hers, as if they're saying, "take a rest, ful."
and i sat there, at the sofa, waiting for my turn to bathe as my third sis was inside at the time..
and, while i was there, i took out the book tat i've been using every saturday...
the book tat was once heavily questioned, but i still kept by it..
i wan everyone to noe tat i wont be free every saturday cos i will be having religious teachings wit my uncle...
those religious teachings, i tell all of u now, is Ussuludin Ma'arifatullah...
i wanna tell all my Muslim frens tis cos i dun wan any misunderstandings later on..
i blog bout tis not cos i wanna show off to all of u, i mean, heck, its not as if i went to madrasah, so wats there for me to show off rite???
i blog bout tis cos i wan all of u to berubah if u hadnt, cos as i sat there waiting for my sis to come out, i took out my book, and read all about my God..
well not ALL cos we're humans and there's no way we can noe EVERYTHING bout our God, so yah i sat there reading bout the 20 sifat yang wajib, 20 sifat yg mustahil dan 1 harus padaNya..
and i also thought bout me, wat i've done in my life so far, whether i desrve to be in heaven or not, all the stuff juz came to my mind as i was doing tis..
then, as if it was orchestrated, azan maghrib was aired on radio...
i felt ashamed of myself as i learn all the sifat-sifat of Allah s.w.t., but yet i didnt even do one solat...
i mean, its crazy juz thinking of it..
i mean, think of the story bout Nabi Adam and Siti Hawa...
all they did was ONE single mistake, and they were sent down to earth as punishment..
think bout it, really, juz think carefully bout it, Nabi Adam, is himself a prophet, angered God and they were immediately sent down to earth..
it juz scares me to think of wat about us, normal humans, how many mistakes have we done, how many times had we gone against Him??
wat we can do now, is to pray, pray for forgiveness, to our Lord, the One Almighty, Who is Omnipotent, Compassionate, and Merciful, Allah s.w.t..
tats the reason y i'm blogging bout tis...
i wanna remind all my Muslim frens to at the very least not forget ur prayers, pray for forgiveness, pray for the well-being of parents, grandparents, whether they're still alive or not, of ur siblings, ur frens, ur teachers, everyone in the Islam community..
for i wanna make realise to those who are still blind, tat the "tanda-tanda kiamat", or the signs of the judgement day, have long appeared..
signs like there will be mass killings, tall buildings, false prophets, hav all appeared..
mass killings(world war, world war 2), very tall buildings(twin towers, taipei 101), false prophets(in malaysia, countless numbers of them had appeared, latest, the Ayah Pin)..
many other examples, but these are the few tat i shall relate to all of u...
we're now juz waiting for the major signs to come, those like the appearance of two unknown animals from the Arab countries, the disappearance of the Al-Quran, and the appearance of Dajjal and Nabi Isa..
btw, fyi, these are not in any order...
so forgive me if u think its wrong..
hmm..
well yeah sis need to use computer now..
so yeah..
there, i've done wat i can, and its up to u whether u wanna start doing wat u havent been doing..
i hoped i've helped all of u before its too late...
may all of us be among the prophets and the angels dwelling in heaven, with our beloved Lord, Allah s.w.t...
Insyallah...
God bless all of u..
byeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-07-31T13:49:00.000-07:00

bored...
cant study at home..
juz cant concentrate as there as a malay wedding nearby..
and nearby means less than 100 meters away from my window..
which means 100 percent no chance of blocking all the sounds out..
damn..
havent been studying for the past week..
even though its supposed to be a study week...
that's my story the past week..
wat's yours..?

2005-07-26T11:26:00.000-07:00

quite a tiring day for me...
met up wit yat to return him his dad's shoes..
had lunch wit him at al-azar..
and as usual the nasi pattaya there is great...
it was yuuuummmmmy...
haha..
so on we go from there to play pool..
long time nvr play but hey won first 2 games..
then i realised i lost my "pool-stamina" and started losing 4 games in a row..
but i won the last game wit him lah..
so final score is 4-3..
hmmm...
dunnoe wats happening to my bod..
getting worser and worser by the day...
ya anyway after tat me and him went on to meet my cousins at raffles place(rp)...
we arrived there early, round 5 plus, when we were supposed to meet them at 6.45..
dunnoe wat to do...
then skali my sister appeared outta nowhere..
she was also damn early and so we decided to explore the rp area...
walk walk walk til we reached esplanade..
then go see merlion all..
hahaa...
macam tourist liddat..
by 6.30 we decided to go back to the rp mrt station...
waited til like siao and finally my first cousin, abang zul, appeared..
then his tunang, then my second cousin...
decided to talk about THE MATTER at the not-so-nearby mac..
when we talked bout THE MATTER, i feel so intimidated..
cos its not like i've done it before or anything...
i juz feel like i'm not ready for it..
i think THE MATTER will stay in my mind for quite a while...
and yah..
yat was there the whole time too when we were discussing bout it..
hm...
long time nvr sit down and talk wit my two abang sedare..
to me they are so called my idols lah..
i'm trying to be like them...
they're so like abang2, not like those f-up bunch of blacksheeps in our malay society whom we call mats..
my cousins, they're so matured, and the way they dress, walk, talk, is like so cool...
haha..
so yeah...
anyway i also feel lucky to noe them cos i can ask them for help in my IT assignments if i wanna cos they're both so pro in IT sector..
gave me and yat so many advise that it nearly gave me a headache...
sigh..
okay lah..
feel very tired now...
mayb cos of all the pool game and the walking and the talking tat i did today...
and yes..
i'm drained of energy...
seriously dunnoe why i feel tis way..
but wat to do..
my body is not wat it used to be...
okokokokokok..
nite everyone...
byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-07-22T00:28:00.000-07:00

whoa..
feel soooo sleepy sia...
but wat to do..
i want those songs from samantha..
asked for them like eons ago..
still havent got them yet...
but nvm...
i'll be patient..
anyway ya thanks to my bro artherius for helping out wit my com...
so i guess ur the first one to get to see my house...
damn messy rite?
haha..
came at a wrong time dude...
come on hari raya..
shud be much more neater by then..
hmm...
transfer song very fast...
or its either i'm typing very slow..
cos got all 3 songs liao...
woooooooooooooo...
thanks sam!!
now listening to: fall out boy - sugar, we're going down..
super nice song...
i juz like the sound of it..
okay lah..
got my songs, so mission accomplished..
now to choose which songs to put at my multiply site..
cos can only put two more..
hmmm....
okok..
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-07-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

i'm listening to everything burns by ben moody and anastacia..
sad sey the song..
and somemore talking to dayah makes it even more worst...
cos i juz found out tat i missed out the chance to meet kadek and rai for the last time..
gosh..
i cant believe noone told me bout them leaving...
its unfair..
damnit..
cant go on blogging.
bye..

2005-07-17T23:23:00.000-07:00

hey peeps i'm back..
cos i'm bored..
anyway, here's the lyrics for the song, The Best of You by Foo Fighters:

I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

2005-07-17T23:14:00.000-07:00

finally...
after a long time of waiting, i've finally got to watch war of the worlds..
woooooooooooooooooooooo...
watched it wit dearest on friday, and watch charlie and chocolate factory juz now...
yes...
i've watched charlie and choc. factory already..
u may not believe me cos actually, to all u normal people, it opens in cinemas only on Aug 14th..
i think..
hehehhehe..
i was juz joking bout the normal people part ah..
so ya..
it was all courtesy of the Golden Village family...
thanks to haikal and zainal for inviting me and deen to ur GV family day..
thanks thanks thanks....
long time never go out wit u guys..
and to do something as special as watching a movie that hasnt even been shown to the whole of Singapore, it makes tat outing a very crazy outing indeed...
everything in this movie is really as wonderful as the chocolates shown in the movie itself..
to put it literally, it was "eye-candy"...
OKOK..
to cut this short, i juz wanna tell all of u peeps that u shud watch it when it comes out...
WATCH IT...
and if u are watching it, pls call me along...
cos i wanna watch it again..
alrite alrite...
tats all for now..
byeeeeeeeeeeee.

to my one and only dearest, thanks for the songs!!
i adore u!

2005-07-12T00:03:00.000-07:00

hmm..
where shud i start?
i think i'll start from the time we left skool to book the bloody pit..
so juz now i left skool wit sam and jam, kym and yanling, around 12 plus to go khatib and book the pit lor..
but then we got a few probs wit the attitude guy at the town council(who sound like he wasnt willing to help us at all), and the aunties and uncles at the community club(who were helpful but in the end got communication problems cos lack of communication skills) ..
we were thinking of throwing away the bbq idea, and instead to juz order pizza and kfc to keep us full..
in the end we stuck by the old idea-which is to go bbq lah of cos..
so on the way to the ABC Supermarket(tats the real name of the supermarket-NO JOKE), it started to rain heavily..
okay i dunnoe why i'm even telling u all tis lah but yah it was raining like mad...
hehe..
after buying all the stuff from ABC Supermarket, went to sam's house to bbq under the block since we didnt manage to book the pit..
so so the girls went up to her house and marinate the chickens, while us guys(arthEr, yew tat and me) set-up the pit using aluminium foil...
haha..
fun sia...
but then hor...
sumthin happened when arthur went away to fetch the other group of 0505 peeps from khatib mrt..
while me, yan ling, kim, yew tat, jam, sam, and sayyidah were bbq-ing, we saw police officers coming our way...
and i was like stunned..
kanasai sia..
cannot even bbq under hdb block..
i mean...
its not as if we were planning to burn down the whole block or sumthin rite..
dumb police officers took our particulars..
dun even noe they take for wat sia...
so so we had to take our "home-made pits" to a more safer place, which was the RC bbq pit of cos..
so ya 0505 celebrated yan ling's birthday there...
though the mood was a bit down after the cops came, we still managed to enjoy ourselves..
especially when we played badminton..
hehe...
beat my good ass bro arthEr..
hehehhehehhehe...
O.o
evil..
so yup tat was it lor...
very tiring day..
it may not sound tiring cos i skipped a few events here and there..
hmm..
okay...
tats all that i think i shud write..
i shall stop here..
cya..
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-07-10T12:03:00.000-07:00

wooooo....
found another use for my multiply website...
go there check it out ya..
linked from here liao..
so go to exitx, then click on my name...
kk...
gotta do sumthin now..
enjoy the music from there hor....
byeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-07-06T11:28:00.000-07:00

warning.
viewer's discretion is advised.
read only when u cant sleep.
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whooooooooo..
long time never blog..
hmmm...
had been a busy week for me..
but okay..
before i start, i muz say two things..
DAVID BECKHAM CAME TO ONE OF THE POLYTECHNICS IN SINGAPORE.
did he went to TP?
nope.
SP?
nope.
how bout NP or RP?
nope.
hehehee..
i juz wanna say tat he came to NYP, BUT I DIDNT GET TO SEE HIM.
fuck siol....
wasted sak..
aisha i still wanna kill u for not calling me when u saw him..
i could hav gotten there in less than a second okay.
boooooooo....
haha..
kk...
shud stop teasing u...
if not later somebody angry..
hehe..
hmmmmmm...
and the second thing tat i muz tell u is tat i saw a guy reading a car magazine and i totally fell in love wit the Toyota Fortuner which was on the front page of the magazine..
goshh...
from the picture, i guess it will be one hell of a car to drive..
one of the finest SUVs in terms of design..
i juz cant get enuf of SUVs...
how i wish i can drive and AFFORD them..
aahhhhhhhhh..
okok....
so much for starters huh..
so, tis past week had been a very busy week for me..
i expect things to be like tis for the next 3 years of my poly life...
busy, busy, busy..
CCAs can be thrown out of the window...
dikir, floorball, judo, all gone..
well maybe not judo lah..
heh..
and yaaaaah..
old-secondary-skool frens asking to meet up, but i cant cos got skool and projects...
oh well..
wat to do...
miss one meeting doesnt mean i will miss all of them...
i'll come when i'm free alrite?
tat goes out to good old frens and good new frens...
for the bad ones, u all can juz go to hell for all i care..
haha..
kk..
i think u all tired of reading liao...
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-07-01T22:23:00.000-07:00

cant stop listening to tis song ever since i first heard it on MTV..
now tat i finally got it from samantha, i can listen to it non-stop...
woooohoooooo..
well here are the lyrics for the song:

People
They don't mean a thing to you
They move right through you
Just like your breath
But sometimes
I still think of you
And i just wanted to
Just wanted you to know
My old friend..
I swear i never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

Sometimes
I forget I'm still awake
I fuck up and say these things out loud

My old friend..
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

"An Honest Mistake"
The Bravery

2005-06-30T23:48:00.000-07:00

It's our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

It's our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

"A Box Full of Sharp Objects"
the Used

2005-06-26T13:04:00.000-07:00

time is passing by so quickly....
it feels juz like yesterday tat i met my poly frens, ppl like Arthur, Alex, bla bla bla...
its so crazy juz to think tat 4 weeks of skool had gone by, and by tmr we'll all be in the 5th week of skool..
gotta plan all the meetings, homework, revision, everything by today....
and today, plan i will..
and nothing is gonna stop me..

O.o
NOTHING...
hahahahaa..
ahahahahahah hahaahaha..
hahahahahahahhahahahaha hahahhahhaaaa hahahahaaaa...
*evil laughter echos on..*
o.O

btw, cant wait for tuesday where sis is gonna give me cash to buy sandals..
woooohhooooooo..
i'm going shopping baby...
planned to go BeetleBug to buy the sandals, then if got the cash i'll go on to Bossini and buy a bag, and if there's any cash left i'll buy the $10.90 cap from 77th street causeway point..
so so so...
tats why i cant wait for tuesday lor...
wooooohooooooooohoooooooooooo...
hehe...
leks ful..
breathe in....
breathe out..
haha..
k lah peeps gotta go do math hw now....
cant waste anymore time cos i still gotta plan for projects and stuff..
so cya..
byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-06-23T10:53:00.000-07:00

now in skool...
at e-learning lab wit dear SBM now..
using free access...
i'm loving it!
haha...
surf net for free....
if ppl in tis room knew tat i'm not from SBM, they will kill me for sure...
ahahaahahahaha..
kk..
yesterday was a very weird day to me..
cos i brought to skool my judogi, knowing i would go for judo..
then suddenly after skool was over, i dun hav the mood for it..
but in the end i had fun lar...
went to one of the tutorial rooms and spent time wit Arthur Galahud, Smart Alex, Yap-Queen Yan Ling, Crazee Kim, and Yo-yo-basketball-yo-Yew-Tat..
played monkey lar...
played wit OHP lar....
hehe..
we were like teenagers wit deprived childhood sia..
it was great fun but i dun think sumthin like tis will happen again...
cos i firmly believe tat the first time will always be the best time..
heh..
crap lor...
ok lah..
u take care.
byeeeeeeeeee..

2005-06-21T23:54:00.000-07:00

two days of watching movies...
shiok sia....
hehe..
yesterday went to watch batman begins wit kal..
nice movie....
i especially like the batmobile...
fu-yooh...
cool sia....
and then and then...
today watched mr and mrs smith at lot 1..
the movie was okaaaaaaay lah...
watched it wit dear...
shiok ah....
the last part was nice..
cos in the end they worked together to save their own lives....
heh..
lame lor..
oh ya during the movie me and dear kena distracted by lousy-assed-movie-goers..
IRRITATING sia...
ppl wanna watch movie, they throw popcorn here and there...
then on the other side got idiots using hp and talking loudly somemore...
whoa kao..
i tell u, i was like damn angry lor...
STUPID ppl....
yah..
anyway tmr got judo...
but dunno whether to go lei...
feel like staying back to do project instead..
hmm...
maybe i can do the project first, then go for judo...
okok..
i think i've said enuf today...
wanna continue chatting wit project ppl on msn now..
byeeeeeee.
ay wait..
to dear, juz go watch wit Wid lar...
tak mati per..
free per...
hehe..
kkkkk..
byeeeeeee.

2005-06-18T12:46:00.000-07:00

the photoshop test was okay lar...
i think i shud b able to pass..
i mean...
its not as if my work is THAT bad rite??
heh..
so yah yesterday after skool went round ang mo kio and yio chu kang area aimlessly wit The Sevens..
tiring but hey it was fun lar...
especially at the last part when we finally got out of the park and got to the rich people's housing estate..
cos when we reached there sOMEBOdy said "excuse me!" to one of the houses and suddenly tis monster of a dog came barking towards us...
but luckily got the house gate lar so nothing bad happened..
hehe..
for today, saturday, as usual i gotta go my uncle's place...
maybe later around 6.30 going JP library to slack..
and to enjoy the air-con..
hahah..
okok...
muz do comm skills hw now..
God bless all of u...
by the way its been a long time since i've said tat.
kay.
take care aight?
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-06-17T11:58:00.000-07:00

in com lab now..
sitting beside kym and yan ling...
waiting for lesson + test to start...
i think i'll flunk tis test spectacularly..
okok..
gotta start now..
wish me luck!

2005-06-15T11:18:00.000-07:00

hahaha...
went for judo training juz now..
quite okaaaaay lar...
met a few new peeps today..
such as dayana..
the only malay girl i noe so far tat hav judo as her cca..
not only did she joined judo, she also became successful in it..
she was judo chairman of her club...
i mean, isnt tat like fantastic or wat sia??
haha..
cooooool...
but i was quite shocked lar as i got to noe some facts bout nyp judo club..
firstly, nyp judo club is not recognised by the singapore judo federation...
which i think is bad lar..
not only tat, the sensei of nyp judo club is the sensei tat thought my yiss sensei..
and he talked bad things bout my sensei..
HOW COULD U DO TAT U *****?
he was ur student wat, so how can u hav the heart to say tat he now dun remember his teacher lar, tat he is now same par as him lar, tat he so called had a cold war between him?
haizz...
and and and...
nyp judo club is so much different from my previous club..
its like a place for u to socialize and hav fun rather than a place where u train ur own discipline..
its not a nice place to train judo, and i'm worried of wat i'm getting myself into...
not being recognised by the SINGAPORE JUDO FEDERATION is one thing, but having such a different sensei is another..
gosh...
politics are everywhere..
but i cant imagine it happening in a judo club..
well now i noe..
how naive of me...

2005-06-14T23:38:00.000-07:00

i'm so the confused....
dunno whether to go for judo, or to go for dikir barat..
dikir starts at 3.30 i think, while judo starts at 4...
hmmm..
and i juz found out tat i still got my judogi after all tis while..
lol..
but now haiyah..
disappointed...
the damned black spots hav become even more obvious..
so, i dunno whether to bring it to skool or not..
so paiseh..
hahhahaha...
but if i dun go for judo, then wat will happen to dikir?
juz forget bout it??
hm...
think saiful think...

2005-06-12T12:11:00.000-07:00

In a haze, a stormy haze,
I'll be round, I'll be loving you always, always,
Here I am and I'll take my time,
Here I am and I'll wait in line, always, always.

Coldplay-Parachutes

2005-06-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

tiring day for me....
i've been feeling so damn tired lately...
so tired tat i made a plan wit raihanie for sunday, even though i had already been booked by my class to go seoul garden...
my fault lor..
haiz...
stupid juniors...
hehe..
i think i was too eager to rid my room of all the bio stuff in my room...
anyway anyway...
juz now, like the 1oth of june 05, was a great day at skool..
i think it will b one of my most memorable days in poly life...
actually the day starts out like crap lor..
first lesson=mathematics 1..
to say tat its as hard as A Maths is an understatement...
i THINK..
hahhahaah..
then after tat things start to go well...
but then dunno why lar today cannot concentrate on wat the bloody lecturer is saying..
cannot blame lor..
got too many things to thing about..
the last lesson was especially great...
it ended like ONE HOUR EARLIER..
went off to meet stacy and fren outside cheers..
talked bout jam and hop...
we were considering whether to go or not...
in the end she decide to go home..
dots..
ya after tat met the class at fj, all of them waiting for the birthday cake..
basically, it was samantha's b'day and we decided to buy her a cake and surprise her...
but then we encountered a few problemos and so the surprise had to be broken..
wasted lor...
but luckily, somehow, everything ended well wit candles been blown and cakes been sliced and stomachs been filled and hearts been..
well erm..
ya it was great lar..
and by the time celebrations was over, the time was already like 7.30-7.45 pm..
so i suggested to the gang to go to jam and hop..
and luckily, they agreed!!
haha..
hahahhahahaha..
happy sey saiful..
heh..
yar...
jam and hop was great but i expected a little bit more lar..
and ya thanks for my classmates; Arthur, Alex, Kenny, Wei Qiang, Yan Ling and Kym for trusting me, and then accompanying me, and then brightening up tis nite for me..
thanks thanks thanks...
cheers and cant wait for tat seoul garden outing on the weekend..
byeeeeeee.

2005-06-07T23:25:00.000-07:00

today skool was okay..
almost everyone wore white..
which was good!!!
white is like SO pure..
haha...
dunno wats wrong wit me today..
ay wait..
haahhahahhaa...
brad pitt juz sent me an e-mail!
woooohooo..
haha...
actually peeps, its about the ONE campaign..
i joined it eons ago to show my support to the super less fortunate ppl in tis world of ours...
i want to give money, but i cant cos i myself need monetary support...
so the only way i can show my support to them is by joining tis campaign..
by giving my voice..
WE CAN MAKE POVERTY HISTORY.
hmmm..
since i'm talkin bout tis subject, i might as well ask u to sign the petition on the website, www.one.org.
go there, and show ur support..
kk..
man i'm such a caring person.
hah.
bye..

2005-06-05T01:21:00.000-07:00

star wars was good..
but i still prefer LOTR to the starwars franchise thing though..
nothing much happened juz now...
as usual, every saturday hav to go uncle's place to rot..
after tat went out meet yat....
i thought tat we were gonna juz chill and relek one corner but suddenly had the urge to watch a movie..
thus the reason why star wars was the first two words in tis entry...
hm..
after tat go home lar of cos BUT i missed the last train..
so how?
i had to go atm, squeeze out the last few dollars tat existed in my account, flag for a cab, and now here i am blogging away at home safe and sound..
and now i wanna zzzz...
k peeps..
so long and goodnite.

2005-05-30T23:10:00.000-07:00

firstly, i will like to thank my classmates for being so caring!!
thanks for the pizza guys!!!!!!!!!
i seriously dunno how to thank u guys..
okay basically, for those of u who dunno anything, i'll tell u now..
my classmates, whom i thought were the type tat cannot be bothered with, turns out to be great, caring ppl after all...
i mean, firstly, after the com lesson, i hav to follow the lecturer to his office..
and when i got out, nobody was there..
called arthur, no answer..
my first thought is tat he purposely didnt pick up my call cos he dun wan me to join them for lunch..
so i went to grab my own bite, then quickly got into the classroom so tat i could catch a nap..
then suddenly they woke me up and gave me the pizza, drumsticks and onion rings..
i was like, AY, AM I STILL DREAMING OR WAT SIAL...
haha..
very, very surprising...
after tat, went to play pool while waiting for dear to finish skool..
i forgot bout the time and when i received her call, i was so damn shocked....
"SHIT LAR FUL. HOW COULD U FORGOT BOUT THE TIME?" was all i could think about when i left them..
i guess i was too engrossed with the pool game...
or maybe they were juz fun ppl....
i dunno...
fact was tat i forgot, and i was in trouble big time..
rushed like mad from amk pool to skool, then past the yck mrt station, and then finally the destination..
which is her lar of course..
haha...
i expected her to be like scolding me, but instead, she was concerned and asked me to cool down and all tat stuff..
wow....
tats very touching to me..
thanks dear...
in fact, i would like to thank everyone, whether u're involved or not, for making my first day of skool great..
thanks thanks thanks..
hav a nice week ahead everyone.
oh ya..
to all the SBM ppl, gd luck for ur exams!!
muz rmb to wish me back when its my turn k??
haha..
aight aight...
byeeeeee.

2005-05-28T11:31:00.000-07:00

yeeehhaaaw!!
can use com....
but later confirm got one pop-up saying all the bullshit and then, my session ends.
so i better try to type as fast as possible...
okok..
so tis past week i had made a few frens...
hope to make as few frens as possible...
cos i dun wan anymore dramas in my life...
hahahahaha..
and er...
i will like to thank my OGLs, Angela, Eugene, and Felicia for putting all their efforts in trying to put our class together and make a cheer....
[even though in the end no cheer watsoever came out from our mouths...but hey tats cos i wasnt there rite??]
to Felicia, sorry i didnt manage to keep my promise!!
haha...
to my class, MIT 0505, pls juz be urself and speak up more...
and dun try to talk cock wit me k....
and...
to these ppl----> Nas, Day, Dee, ME, the Huei twins, Zul, Delphine, Kok Rui, Syamilah dear, i wish all of u a HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY..........
may all ur wishes and demands come true...
k tats all..
wish my com a speedy recovery aight??
hehe...
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

2005-05-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

CEMETARY DRIVE THIS NIGHT. WALK THE DEAD. IN A SOLITARY STYLE AND CRASH THE CEMETARY GATES. IN THE DRESS YOUR HUSBAND HATES. WAY DOWN. MARK THE GRAVE. WHERE THE SEARCHLIGHTS FIND US DRINKING BY THE MAUSOLEUM DOOR. AND THEY FOUND YOU ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR. I MISS YOU SO FAR. AND THE COLLISION OF YOUR KISS THAT MADE IT SO HARD. BACK HOME. OFF THE RUN. SINGING SONGS THAT MAKE YOU SLIT YOUR WRISTS. IT ISN'T THAT MUCH FUN. STARING DOWN A LOADED GUN. SO I WONT STOP DYING. WONT STOP LYING. IF YOU WANT I'LL KEEP ON CRYING. DID YOU GET WHAT YOU DESERVE? IS THIS WHAT YOU ALWAYS WANT ME FOR? I MISS YOU.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE.

2005-04-17T20:07:00.000-07:00

since unwanted ppl had came to noe about tis blog when they were told about the issue, i hav to say tis...
it is not about the beach thing like norman had said..
not at all..
FULL STOP.

2005-04-13T09:34:00.000-07:00

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of....
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

"Demolition Lovers"
My Chemical Romance

2005-04-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

http://heartlesskane101.multiply.com
u can go there if u want to....
b y e . . . .

2005-03-20T23:56:00.000-08:00

You're such a USELESS FRIEND...
To my three brothers-Haikal, Karthig and Zainal, you must all see it in a sarcastic manner..
You must all see tat sentence in this manner:
You're all great, useful friends..
BUT TO YOU...
The one tat juz recently asked me bout my blog, you must see it as it is....
which is: You're such a useless friend...
Muahahaahahaha....
Fuck it..
Fuck YOU you motherfucking motherfucker...
You can go fuck off from tis blog....
In fact...
You can fuck off from my life...
Cos i dun ever wanna fucking see or hear from you again you motherfucking piece of crap....
Fuck you...
Fuck you.....
Fuck you....
This friendship is fucking over...
And so is this blog entry...
Once again..
Fuck you.

2005-03-06T12:00:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD.....
went to hmv the other day and saw j.lo's new album...
and do u noe wat its called??
for those who didnt noe...
its called REBIRTHED...
hahahahhahahaaaa...
shit....
okok..
the purpose of me writing tis is to tell u guys tat i DID NOT copy her and tat it was juz a stupid coincidence tat rebirth happens to b the name of my blog..
if i knew her new album was called rebirthed, i would not put my blog's name as tat....
k...
point made..
God bless all of u.

2005-03-04T21:42:00.000-08:00

So you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter.
Demanding I treat you better, should I ever want it back and now I'm all alone.
Dreams are all forgotten, memories all turned rotten.
It's not the same on the phone.

So what's up girl?
Things havent changed a bit since we last met.
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl tat I ever had.
I never wanna lose you.
So what's up?

I cant let you walk away.
We planned to live forever in each others arms.
So.
Please hold on.
You know- no one will love you like i do!
And that's the thing- you know it too.

I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio.
You're on my mind, I cant let u go.
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold.
Please take my hand, never let me go.
I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio.
You're on my mind, I cant let u go.
Please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds.

Ransom Letter
Pug Jelly

2005-02-22T22:22:00.000-08:00

feel happy tat i finally got transferred back to NAC...
got to see my ppl....
ppl like Zell..
ppl like Jia Hui...
ppl like Lenny..
the list goes on and on and on..
BUT...
i still cant get the matter bout her outta my mind...
my girl..
u're the one....
but i dunno if i am UR one...
i mean..
look at how many times i've disappointed u[remember Saturday?]...
haiz...
everytime i disappoint u i feel useless..
the more i feel useless, the more i feel like i'm a freakin hassle to u..
the more i think tat i'm a hassle to u, the more i wanna let u go so u'll be happier...
....
i wish i could be the one always cheering u up...
i wish i could read ur mind so tat i'll noe ur troubles too...
and how i wish i could be a better person so tat i can always b there for u....
unfortunately..
these are nothin BUT wishes..
aaaarrrhhh...
God bless all of u.

VIVA LA CUCUROACHA!!!!!

2005-02-09T22:41:00.000-08:00

woooo........
juz finished editing tis baby....
haha....
i think he looks great in black and white....
wadya think?
wanna hear ur comments....
k..
take care....
to my dear, i adore u a lot...
and i miss u a lot....
cant wait to see u..
aight..
God bless all of u.

2005-02-08T01:24:00.000-08:00

was on my way to work at 11.30 in the morning when sir eric called me....
asked me to go down to eastpoint to help out wit the new branch...
i said okaaaaay....
then he goes on to say tat my working schedule for tis week is wit ma'am pam..
which will mean tat i hav to go to eastpoint branch to work...
but the thing is....
i dont noe my schedule cos she didnt tell me...
which means i hav to wait for her call everyday to tell me if i'm working or not...
damn it seh...
all of these TOTALLY SUCK..
haiz..
i'm so confused now...
AND there are RUMORS tat i hav to work at the stuuupid eastpoint branch permanently...
as in...
i WONT BE GOING BACK TO WORK AT BREEKS NGEE ANN CITY...
aiyoh...
i'm juz prayin tat the rumors will stay as rumors and tat it will not come true..
...
God bless all of u.
PS. if tis blog entry made u confused, it was becos I was feeling confused as i was writin it. k. i'm startin to talk crap now. i'll stop.

finally....

2005-02-06T23:23:00.000-08:00

its a girl!!!!
no wait....
its a boy!!!!
hehe...
finally....
tis baby of mine has started to crawl...
heartlesskane had juz been rebirthed....
yes!!!
he's been rebirthed...
BUT DUN SPREAD THE NEWS!!!
cos its meant to be a secret shared among the closest pals of Muhammad Saiful Bin Saimin...
aight...
i trust all of u ppl...
there shall be no holds barred in tis particularly innocent looking blog...
for example...
we can go say FUCK YOU THE BOI IN BLACK!!
YES I'm TALKING TO U U FILTHY LITTLE BASTARD....
hehe...
kidding...
neway yar i'm gonna say wat i wanna say in tis blog cos i say so.....
woooo-hooo...
u may not believe it...
but heartlesskane has been rebirthed...
God bless all of u.

2005-02-05T14:41:00.000-08:00

reset.....
start over again...
rebirthkane....
rebirth tis heartless monkey...
rebirth tis heartlesskane...
rebirth me and u...